Book Review: Dark Breaks the Dawn – Sara B. Larson

3:30am in the morning lets do this

how am i ever going to go on a day without feeling sleepy, and then waking up at night like a vampire because I’m probably one

Note that I have unfortunately made this review mildly spoilerish, but its really not if you know the story of Swan Lake well, and the fact that this is a Swan Lake retelling. You’re gonna be expecting one or two elements from the story you know to appear in the book either way.




Name: Dark Breaks the Dawn
Author: Sara B. Larson
Publisher: Scholastic Press
Release May 30, 2017


On her eighteenth birthday, Princess Evelayn of Eadrolan, the Light Kingdom, can finally access the full range of her magical powers. The light looks brighter, the air is sharper, and the energy she can draw when fighting feels almost limitless.

But while her mother, the queen, remains busy at the war front, in the Dark Kingdom of Dorjhalon, the corrupt king is plotting. King Bain wants control of both kingdoms, and his plan will fling Evelayn onto the throne much sooner than she expected.

In order to defeat Bain and his sons, Evelayn will quickly have to come into her ability to shapeshift, and rely on the alluring Lord Tanvir. But not everyone is what they seem, and the balance between the Light and Dark comes at a steep price.

Book Cover Comments

As you all know (or if not) this is a Swan Lake retelling, and we can see THE ONE AND ONLY symbol that represents the theme we have on the book cover: a swan. Surprise!

Just kidding.

After finishing the book, I see the significance of those red vines thorns whatever they are. And ooo this book IZZZ gonna thrill you.

And the stone plays an important part in the story!

The Actual Review

First impressions:

Is this book like, a heavy Sarah J. Maas influenced book? Cus all I see is:

  • conduit stone (ACOTAR check)
  • Lorcan (TOG check)
  • inner circle (ACOTAR check)
  • one or two plot points (CHECK)
  • spider silk (TOG check)

That kind of bugged me during my first reads at the book, but at the same time, this book was so attractive and so addictive, I couldn’t stop turning the pages and eventually lost track of time. And no, despite all the references that I believe are to be from SJM books, (or not?) the entire plot to Dark Breaks The Dawn was completely unique. I really loved this story. And I have to say, it was a haunting experience to read.

I’ll explain the “haunt” when I get to the end.

Evelayn, our heroine, super strong. I totally love her. She’s a really unique girl, because of how strong she can be. She fights down her tears, she puts up her stance and her status in front of her audience, and the bravery that she has is just absolutely stunning. Sara lets all of Evelayn’s emotions flow through the text, and that vulnerability that Evelayn has despite all of the chaos in her life, leading her to put up wall after wall is just what we needed to complete her.

And with Evelayn being said, we must not ignore the R-O-M-A-N-C-E in this book. Ok slightly spoilery here but you’d be expecting it anyway, is how Evelayn just kind of clicked in with Tanvir. Their mutual attraction was so strong, and Sara’s romance game was gigantic. If a reader feels the heart flutters, then that means Joanne the book reviewer will pretty much, if not, love the book. (Yes people I love romance) The build up in their relationship, opening up to each other and then in the confession is just TOO MUCH TO TAKE HAHAHAHHAHAAHAHA (i went nuts yes i did)

This world that Evelayn is in obviously has magical powers, and I believe it would be beneficial if the book explained the term that the people with the magical ability was called, since it confused me so much. 25% into the book and I finally had a grasp on what exactly it was. I would have loved a little bit more elaboration of the powers and the magic system, cus it was a little confusing, and we come across these difficult to pronounce/read terms.

Imagine if the most important mountain in this world was named Eyjafjallajökull.

Then no one except the Icelanders would be able to pronounce it right 😂

Plot. Oh yes the plot. It was well spread, everything wasn’t rushed and was just right, the build up to the semi-climax of the book, so well passed halfway, and you might have predicted, would be something to do about war. I mean, its up there in the synopsis. Though I felt like during the war part, some parts were rushed, and I’m definitely not a big fan of like, huge big blows of power, because I feel like its like

Oh. It finally happened.

or like

Wait thats it

or like

It happened in a blink of an eye

And then the part after the battle is the part that is the most important. Because the story continues to build up to the final climax at the very end of the book. And that is why reading this part was very haunting. Because I knew there was more to come, and yet the language and events in this part of this book seemed fairly chill in order to hide it (IMO). Then the climax came along at the very end of the book.


Then the Swan Lake element hits.

Look at all dem spoilers in this review.

I always wondered where was the true Swan Lake element that we all know, and there it is. And the book ends.

Me after I read past page 301:


another year of longing for the next and final book of the series to come out to learn more about everything and to resolve everything.

This was definitely a great read of July. The fact that it wasn’t a blastingly lengthy book made it simple and easy to read, and the romance in the book was extremely rich and absolutely lovely. Not to mention that oh so great cliffhanger at the end :)


Book Review: Spindle Fire – Lexa Hillyer

Whew, finished the final part of the book on the plane back to Hong Kong simply because I had nothing better to do, and I slept too much throughout the day.



Name: Spindle Fire
Author: Lexa Hillyer
Publisher: Harper Teen
Release April 11, 2017




A kingdom burns. A princess sleeps. This is no fairy tale.

It all started with the burning of the spindles.


It all started with a curse…

Half sisters Isabelle and Aurora are polar opposites: Isabelle is the king’s headstrong illegitimate daughter, whose sight was tithed by faeries; Aurora, beautiful and sheltered, was tithed her sense of touch and her voice on the same day. Despite their differences, the sisters have always been extremely close.

And then everything changes, with a single drop of Aurora’s blood—and a sleep so deep it cannot be broken.

As the faerie queen and her army of Vultures prepare to march, Isabelle must race to find a prince who can awaken her sister with the kiss of true love and seal their two kingdoms in an alliance against the queen.

Isabelle crosses land and sea; unearthly, thorny vines rise up the palace walls; and whispers of revolt travel in the ashes on the wind. The kingdom falls to ruin under layers of snow. Meanwhile, Aurora wakes up in a strange and enchanted world, where a mysterious hunter may be the secret to her escape…or the reason for her to stay.

Book Cover Comments

Despite the sort of dull blue/green/grey, the contrast it had with the rest of the graphics, in which is in an ice blue shade was really cool. The designs for the castles and whatever symbolism it had was really nice as well. I also liked how its the opposite of book 2 (coming out in 2018)’s cover, as the background color is ice blue, and the font for the title (Winter Glass btw) is in that dull blue/green/grey. (Correct me if I’m wrong.)

The Actual Review

OK like are you serious this book just killed me.

Let’s kick off with the Sleeping Beauty retelling element. I super duper duper love how we get a mix of both old and new, from the classic Aurora tale of falling asleep, to the fact that Aurora actually wakes up in a totally different world? Also the fact that the so called fairy godmothers you know in the classic tale ain’t that fairy godmother like anymore. Lexa changes the entire concept of some of the most well known characters, well unfortunately basically all of them, and unfortunately villainising almost everyone we used to know to make a whole new Sleeping Beauty. I thought I saw elements of Disney’s live action movie, Maleficent, in the book. Maybe I do, but my speculations can’t be confirmed till I read the next book, in which I’m dying to.

Then we have the two sisters.

It is really interesting for Aurora and Isabelle to have a part(s) of them tithed to the fairies, and so that makes our characters very interesting. Whereas all the previous books that I’ve read so far has pretty much completely normal characters in terms of body criteria, Isabelle has her sight tithed while Aurora has her sense of touch and voice tithed. Imagining these characters and putting myself into their shoes was a completely different experience, and the tithes make a great role in their own personal development.

Yes, personal development.

I am so proud to see the character growth of both Aurora and Isabelle. Aurora, in her sleeping world, has learnt the worth of herself and found out the things that she can do. She broke so many boundaries that she couldn’t do as a princess and in the real life world, and in her sleeping world, she had the courage and bravery to believe in what she thought was the correct way, and went ahead. And throughout the story, she broke so many mysteries and solved so many riddles that lead to the final ending which was satisfying.

#TwilightMoment #SpoilerAlert

Isabelle’s main issue was self worth, because (SPOILER ALERT) she is basically the bastard daughter of the king, and you could technically call her Aurora’s shadow in people’s eyes. Isabelle has constant worries over her own worth when comparing herself to Aurora, and through her journey of trying to find a way to save her sister and by encountering a very special (AHEM) someone, Isabelle has learnt to be a little bit more selfish for herself, to believe in the worthiness of herself, and that she is beautiful in her own way.

Ok maybe not that last line, but she’s getting there.

I super duper love how the book works. The majority of the POVs switch between Aurora and Isabelle, so alternating chapters of these two POVs, with occasional cameo appearances of some fairy lords, fairy princess, the “fairy godmothers” whatever whatever whatever. They told a story of their own, they shared snippets from the past that helped explain the rest of the book and solve some mysteries, and during some points, I was in absolute shock.

What else is there to say?






Ok also the fact that many roles overlap and many roles kind of mirror each other. You’ll see what I mean when you compare our heroines to some other existing sisters in the book. And then cue the jealousy and how that brings down hell and storm and whatever whatever.




So in conclusion (The crappest way to end an essay or whatever I know) if you die for crazy romance that gives you beautiful butterfly heartaches, a great mystery, alternative worlds and mirroring roles and images, definitely pick up Spindle Fire. This was totally worth the purchase when I was at B&N Orange County back in California. It’s such a good read, and the last line is definitely to die for.

Book Review: Because You Love to Hate Me – Ameriie

This will be a super lengthy and detailed post, because I want to have a short review for every single short story.

All authors and booktubers will be listed with the corresponding short story, so the info section won’t be spammed.


Name: Because You Love to Hate Me
Editor: Ameriie
Publisher: Bloomsbury
Release Date: July 11, 2017


In this unique YA anthology, thirteen acclaimed, bestselling authors team up with thirteen influential BookTubers to reimagine fairy tales from the oft-misunderstood villains’ points of view.

These fractured, unconventional spins on classics like “Medusa,” Sherlock Holmes, and “Jack and the Beanstalk” provide a behind-the-curtain look at villains’ acts of vengeance, defiance, and rage–and the pain, heartbreak, and sorrow that spurned them on. No fairy tale will ever seem quite the same again!

Book Cover Comments

That pink and purple gradient? And that metallic rose with the black sleek oil? Absolutely evil and vicious. I have to say though, the metal stem on the back creeps me out. Probably what its going for.

The Actual Review

I love the idea of how the authors make a new piece from the prompt given from the booktubers, and then the booktubers have a short piece of their own. It’s a very cute and innovative idea, a way to have our booktubers to shine not only from YouTube, but also from written work. Gathering all the best authors from all around the book community to produce this amazing anthology is the best thing ever.

The formatting of the following review will be separated by each collaboration, and a final thought will be at the very end of this review.


Renée Ahdieh & Christine Riccio: An Ambitious Dark Lord

Renée’s story was absolutely captivating. The surprise plot twist at the end of this short story, and the build up to that excitement was greater than ever. The way she turned Christine’s prompt into a futuristic setting was very clever.

Christine’s writing in the form of a guideline was very Christine. Her sense of humor was weaved into this short piece, and I couldn’t help myself but make my dad read this hilarious piece. This totally un-usable guide is worth a read.


Ameriie & Tina Burke: The Giant from “Jack & the Beanstalk”

Ameriie’s story stays true to her thoughts on how she sympathises with villains, and she gives the story a modern and special twist on the giant, as well as giving it a rich and deep character for readers to sympathise with, and to understand.

Tina’s piece was in a form of a commentary to Ameriie’s work, allowing us readers to have many thoughts, as well as many aspects that affect the giant’s character. An intriguing piece that brings out the ideas that we’d never had about villains.


Soman Chainani & Samantha Lane: Lancelot

Soman’s innovative text message format of a behind-the-scenes to the story involving Lancelot, while confusing, was very high-school-(oops spoilers!) drama like. The question therefore is: is the villain really the villain, or a hero?

Samantha’s twitter-stagram to comment on given identities of villains, such as “bornwicked” or a character from Lancelot’s story leaves readers pondering on the blurred line between a hero and a villain.


Susan Dennard & Sasha Alsberg: Moriarty

Susan’s rich and complicated story of Moriarty brings that one subject that I oh-so-loathe to my mind again: Theory of Knowledge. Her story makes us readers think about exactly what right and wrong is, the ethics of law and justice.

Sasha’s blog that finishes off with a shocking surprise brings the modern world to surface, how the internet takes place in events and actions that are recognised as villainy, and how Moriarty could be lurking on your web history right now.


Sarah Enni & Sophia Lee: A Dark Sorcerer seeking Immortality

Sarah’s story shows the sorcerer’s ambition and the sorcerer’s motivation and willingness, while spinning the minds of readers while we fall deeper into the confusion of the hero and the villain.

Sophia’s commentary brings out idea that I  of the sorcerer, and goes another level deeper into the fundaments of the character, as well as the role of a hero or a villain, as they could switch roles in another person’s story.


Marissa Meyer & Zoë Herdt: The Sea Witch

Marissa’s writing once again amazed me as a reader, delivering the story of the birth of the “villain”, when in truth, their stories began from a heart of innocence and purity, however destroyed by the betrayal and the pain.

Zoë’s commentary shows how the story of the sea witch weaves through her life, and when people linger between the choices of good and evil, as well as ending her piece with a short quiz that determines whether you’re a hero or a villain.


Cindy Pon & Benjamin Alderson: Medusa

Cindy’s story combines Greek mythology with Chinese culture, creating a new fusion that brings out the most intriguing thoughts on the story of Medusa. The way she uses the names and the meanings behind it leaves a great impression.

Benjamin’s Q&A that discusses his thoughts on Cindy’s story highlights different key aspects of it, as well as some hidden messages that a reader might brush past. He also ties in his past experience with the story of Medusa in this short piece.


Victoria Schwab & Jesse George: Death

Victoria’s symphony of death weaves together the story of two characters, concluding with a mysterious ending that leaves me seeking with questions and answers. Her materialisation of “death” was avant-garde.

Jesse’s letter threads through his own feelings from an experience he had with a certain someone. A letter filled with curiosity and inquiries, Jesse displays the love-hate relationship that people can have with this special someone.


Samantha Shannon & Regan Perusse: The Erl Queen

Samantha’s story twists the original tale of the faeries and sets it in the 19th century, turning the arrow that points towards the villain in the other way. The story closes with a shocking and dark ending that highlights the concept of “folklore” itself.

Regan’s commentary highlights the reason behind her prompt, as well as the contrast in gender in the story. She also points out the display of female power in the story, the complete opposite of what 19th century England is like.


Adam Silvera & Catriona Feeny: A Comic Book-inspired Teen Crime Lord

Adam’s tale is told from a perspective of “you”, displaying a uniqueness to the text. He designed his villain so that the villain was born due to the environment when growing up, a common concept that was looked over when judging villains.

Catriona’s analysis of using masks, a key concept in Adam’s story offers a psychological view into us as a person, what it tells about us, as well as highlighting some key points and issues in the teen crime lord’s short story.


Andrew Smith & Raeleen Lemay: A Futuristic Psychopath

Andrew’s sense of humor in the story caught my attention. His rich description and the sophisticated design of the psychopath was hard to understand, and yet left me with many questions about the character that I want to know about.

Raeleen’s analysis ties in her own ideas of what a psychopath is, and discusses the psychopath’s character, the story’s plot line, and her own feelings and thoughts. Her piece is a perfect explanation and support to the sophisticated story.


April Tucholke & Whitney Atkinson: The unwanted suitor from “Beauty and the Beast”

April’s brand new story puts a never-seen-before twist on Beauty and the Beast, erasing whatever we’ve known about the original story. Both saddening and a heartwarming ending, the last two lines takes your breath away.

Whitney’s piece shows the contrasts between expectation and reality, the representation of heroes and villains, and how villains are much more special in the sense that, they go through life and reality.


Nicola Yoon & Steph Sinclair/Kat Kennedy: The God of War

Nicola’s twist on the God of War in a modern era was exciting and thrilling. Through the multiple perspectives, Nicola shows the sadness when one is born with a negative quality, therefore labelled as a villain.

Steph and Kat’s guide to villainy is the absolute best way to close the book. Introducing cliché villain characteristics, the guide also assists you on building the strongest, most powerful, fearless and uncontrollable villain,


My final thoughts are that, no matter if it is a brand new story, or if it is a retelling, this book activated a lot of thinking on the actual role of villains, and raised many many questions on villains. I believe that no one was born evil, but what was it that gave these villains in these 13 short stories the label “villain”?

It’s true that one would hate a villain to the core, but Because You Love to Hate Me shows a different aspect on these villains: what if some of them had stories, stories where the lines of good and bad would be no longer clear?

Because You Love to Hate Me is a spectacular anthology that brings up thousands of questions on the roles of villain, the blurred lines in between, and so much more.

ARC Review: Zenith – Sasha Alsberg & Lindsay Cummings

Not to be confused with the 9 chapter eBook that was the backbone of this magnificent masterpiece: eBook review here!

Also, Its 2am in the morning, just finished this book and I am absolutely dead, but if I don’t write it now, I won’t be able to function properly.

Update: it’s 3am now. I finished this review at around 3am.


Name: Zenith
Author: Sasha Alsberg & Lindsay Cummings
Publisher: Harlequin Teen
Release Date: January 16, 2018


Most know Androma Racella as the Bloody Baroness, a powerful mercenary whose reign of terror stretches across the Mirabel Galaxy. To those aboard her glass starship, Marauder, however, she’s just Andi, their friend and fearless leader.

But when a routine mission goes awry, the Marauder‘s all-girl crew is tested as they find themselves in a treacherous situation—and at the mercy of a sadistic bounty hunter from Andi’s past.

Meanwhile, across the galaxy, a ruthless ruler waits in the shadows of the planet Xen Ptera, biding her time to exact revenge for the destruction of her people. The pieces of her deadly plan are about to fall into place, unleashing a plot that will tear Mirabel in two.

Andi and her crew embark on a dangerous, soul-testing journey that could restore order to their ship—or just as easily start a war that will devour worlds. As the Marauder hurtles toward the unknown, and Mirabel hangs in the balance, the only certainty is that in a galaxy run on lies and illusion, no one can be trusted.

ARC Cover Comments

I think the difference between this cover and the old cover, is that the simplicity just makes it much much much more beautiful.

The Mirabel symbol with its shadows and depth, but at the same time simple is just absolutely gorgeous, and the background, the galaxy smokey lightning-ey like beautiful blue and purple and indigo just takes my heart away.

The Actual Review

DEO0BvQUMAA4Vfp.jpgAbsolutely dead.

I am in shock.

On the right is me after I finished Zenith around fifteen minutes ago from now.

Zenith was a true roller coaster ride, and it definitely reached Zenith at the very end of the book. The plot twist at the very end was insane, and I am listening to an apocalypse-sounding-sad song of death.

Words cannot describe how amazing this book is. You’ll know what this book means to me when I do a video review, cus thats when I can show all my emotions. #ded

There was no fear in her eyes. Only a burning anger as hot as a flame.

Starting with the basics, as I said in my video review of the overlapping chapters with the original eBook, there was so much, so much that Sasha and Lindsay and improved on, even if its just the basic sentencing and redundancy issues (yes ever since I went for ACT tutoring these just come to me naturally). And I know just how much they improved, because I annotated 90% of the differences of the eBook VS the ARC. Oh right I’ll be making a separate post on how I managed to GET MY HANDS ON THIS BEAUTY ASDFGHJKL

For the first time in a long time, he felt fully alive.

I haven’t read much Sci-Fi and have absolutely no idea of what is the definition of a good Sci-Fi book, but either way, this blew me away. I always tried to steer away from the sci-fi simply because I’ve never liked Star Wars or Star Trek cus I got haunted by that horned red black face evil dude from Star Wars as a child—with the exception of The Illuminae Files— but I really enjoyed this.

She’d fallen, not for a lover, but for the skies. For adventure.

The bond between Andi and her crew is simply unbreakable, the respect they have for each other and the care they have for each other, their acceptance, their closeness, and more of this would be repeating myself over and over and over again. Can I just say that the AI on their ship, the Marauder, has the most beautiful name on Earth?

Like the stars.

The so called sadistic bounty hunter Dex comes in, and unfortunately Andi and her crew has to hangout to go on some sort of business that I will not spoil you. There is this love-hate relationship between Andi and Dex that is so hard to explain, and their tangled pasts and how that plays out in their relationship? And by the end of the book, seeing these two enemies acknowledging each other is nice to see. There’s always more to this relationship, and its so hard not to spoil you, so I must try my best to seal my mouth shut.

Androma Racella wasn’t an angel.
She was death incarnate.

We get to see the view and everything from three planets: Arcadius, Adhira —home to Lira the pilot— and Xen Ptera. Each of these are unique in their own way, and the vivid description that each of these cities have, the details and the work the Lindsay and Sasha put into describing everything to its finest is what won me over. I love beautiful places and beautiful sceneries, and having such a paradise (well this is ironical) is unimaginable. It’s always hard to start a world from scratch, especially set in different planets in a more futuristic environment, but I think this book definitely nailed that part.

“There’s a million colors up there. A million shades all mixed together. When you look at the world in more than just black and white, you begin to notice them.”

In this book, the story is told from the following perspectives: Andi, Lira (NEW!), Dex, K the female (NEW!), Valen (NOT SO NEW BUT NEW!) and Nor. K the female plays an extremely special role in explaining the story, especially in the very last bits of whats gonna happen. If it wasn’t for her perspective at the very end, my mind would not have exploded into millions of pieces.

“We’ve been through darkness. But that doesn’t mean we can’t still live in the light.”

Oh and if I haven’t showed it yet, there is a huge revelation at the very end, and with the help of K, my mind blasted into 5 million pieces.

She was sound and wind and movement. The elements that made up the world were hers to command.

Androma is such a strong and beautiful character. She’s been through so, so, so much in her past, from unescaping nightmares that haunt her till today, to the binding chains and the broken relationships that she has, she is an absolutely amazing character. And her other self, the Bloody Baroness, the one that stands so strong to defend the ones that she loves, the defend what is right, to stand up once again even if she falls over again and again.

Because it was not Andi who rose, but someone else in her place.
The Bloody Baroness.

At this one planet, we get all the different people in Mirabel Galaxy, and I love how all forms of extra terrestrial beings are included, from rainbow-shifting-iridescent-skinned people to those with 500 billion horns on their head, as well as those with beautiful tattoos all over their body or something.

“Sleep, and remember to dream of the light.”

Nor, the so-called ruthless ruler from Xen Ptera, she’s pretty amazing as well. I think its that special type of light that she manages to bring out, as well as all that she’s been through, that strength inside of her to continue to survive to reach her final goal.

“You will, Nhatyla. You’ll give us all back the stars and more.”

And now that we’re talking about Nor, I’d just like to say that by the end of the book, I seriously have no idea who to put as the villain or antagonist. Some of the characters-that-seems-like-an-antagonist has a soft side to them, and this is reason #2 why your mind will explode at the very end of this book.

The light had finally begun to shine.

Unfortunately if I say more, I will actually spoil this book. Bummer.

“You will join me, Brother, and together, you and I will take back the galaxy.”

But what else do I have to say other than the fact that this book is simply out of this world? When I read the last few chapters, it was as if I was thrown into a pool of feels to drown in and never surface again. And to end this review that is over 1000 words long: (why can’t this be school essays)

Fly true.


Book Review: All The Bright Places – Jennifer Niven

Right. One month.

I’ll try to document the two week trip to America, and then the other missing two weeks? School. HELL.






Name: All The Bright Places
Author: Sophie Kinsella
Publisher: Ember / Knopf (1st ed)
Release Date: September 6, 2016 / Jan 6, 2015 (1st ed)


Theodore Finch is fascinated by death. Every day he thinks of ways he might kill himself, but every day he also searches for—and manages to find—something to keep him here, and alive, and awake.

Violet Markey lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her small Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister’s recent death.

When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school—six stories above the ground— it’s unclear who saves whom. Soon it’s only with Violet that Finch can be himself. And it’s only with Finch that Violet can forget to count away the days and start living them. But as Violet’s world grows, Finch’s begins to shrink. . . .

Book Cover Comments

It’s cute.

A very contemporary message-bringing book book cover.

The Actual Review

I had a lot of high expectations because of goodreads choice awards and what everyone said.. but… no.

I just didn’t really click with ATBP. I think the greatest problem that caused all of this was because the perspectives really confused me. I dunno, just felt like at the beginning there was so much going on, I lose track of the characters.

And thats the reason why I never read Harry Potter. Firstly I can’t pull up so many character faces in my mind. And secondly, I watched the movies. And thirdly, too much going on. Ok I sidetracked.

Also, at certain points, we lose Violet’s perspective completely, and that part just confused the heck outta me. I had absolutely no idea what was going on.


Tbh half of the time I had no idea what was going on in this book. It was somewhat really hard for me to catch up onto what was going on. There are parts where it gets really interesting, but because of my low-hype throughout the book, it became awkward. I think in general, the build up of Violet and Finch was just really mellow, and I get why, because this is kind of Jennifer Niven’s biography in a sense, since she’s sharing a personal experience of hers but in this form.

Also, I think I never understood what the story surrounds until I got to the ending. I always thought it of (mild spoilers btw) “There’s a reason to live on, you might still suicide but hold on” instead of what the book is, which is “the survivor of the incident, as in the sidewatcher”. I think this stumped me up. Also I just have to say, the ending felt rushed to me, everything just happened. And because of that misunderstanding, it didn’t leave me a good impression.

Like ok I get this is for a good cause, at occasional times its really sweet, the message its giving readers I understood because I can associate with it, but I just didn’t really dig into it. Also I personally like to know everything, I’m nosey, so when there are one or two things that the author left out on purpose, it itches. I’m sorry but I’m a real pandora right here.


So overall, this is just my opinion and my reading experience, you might like it you might not, it really depends on how the book hits you and if you understand whats going on.